Shit

Well, there was a post I deleted for various reasons, but I lost it, so I'll just repost the short version. Back in January, on the 1st, Bro and I got trashed, it was a good time. On the 13th I went up to Calgary for the weekend, my car ended up with a cracked head, so my brother drove me around, I met some really cool people, got trashed, and ended up with a horrible stomach flu. On the upside, I went to a Slipknot/Killswitch Engage/Unearth concert, and it was probably the 2nd best show I've ever seen in my life. Fucking, AMAZING. For the last 4 songs, Slipknot called the stands to the floor, so I bolted down, and it was a 1500 person moshpit. Best thing I've ever done in my life. Loved it. Then I came home and started job hunting.


Thats the intensely short version. Ah well.

Trust Is For People Who Don't Understand The World

Music: Tool - Aenima

Y'know I've come to a brilliant conclusion that people cannot be trusted unless you have known them for a minimum of 7 years. Even then, its sketchy. So back in mid- late Dec, Bluefairy pretty much stopped talking to me. From kissing and hugging to never-talking. But she hung out with Kiwi alot. I figured she was into him. And y'know, if she'd have admitted it back then, I wouldn't have cared NEAR as much. But no, they deny it all they can. Ok, play your game. She suddenly comes out and admits she's not interested. Still hangs out with Kiwi daily. It's pretty obvious isn't it? Time goes by, she claims to have found someone in Coaldale (nearby town) that it was 'magic' with. Goodie fucking twoonie two-shoes. So her and her dream mystery guy (who she refuses to give a name for) are going out on Valentines. And Kiwi, who is supposedly single, has plans. Dun dun DUUUUUUUUUN.

Music: Tool - Lateralis

Kiwi was supposed to have been moving back to New Zealand in a month, and didnt really WANT to, but wouldnt argue with his mom unless Bluefairy told him too. (hark, are those Obvious Bells I hear?) And so today Kiwi convinced his mom to let him stay, but he needs a place to live, so I offer the spare room here. Suddenly Bluefairy leaves me a message "I have to talk to you. You need to know something." Well, well, fucking, well. SOMEONE, realizing they wouldnt be able to hide it, has decided to come clean. So I text her. But she's tired and will tell me tomorrow. So I call her "look, just say it". and it went something as such -

"Just say it"
"You're going to hate me....oh god...."
"No I wont, just say it"
"Kiwi and I are dating"
"I know"
*dead silence on her end*
"What, think I didnt see it coming? How stupid do you take me for? I've known for the whole time"
"But it only happened friday"
"and its been in the works since december"
"No, really it was unexpected, but just...great"
"No, it was highly expected, now have a good sleep"
"Your mad, what are you thinking"
"I'm reading a website, you can hear the mouse clicking, have a good sleep"
*click*


God I'm too nice for my own good. That was the shortened version by the way, the long version went on about me being more mad they never told me to start, and how she had some insane vision of me going apeshit in her mind. Guess what princess, you know by now life isnt all roses. Jump the buck and face it. I don't go apeshit that easy.

Music: Tool - Eulogy

So I put up the punching bag in the garage and took a few swings at it. only sparring strength, it swings to much for anything more. But now my knuckles are completely raw. I need sparring gloves.

But really, Bluefairy's actions in the last month clued me into the truh of how she is, and how she really acts. So I expected this shit from her. But I expected better from Kiwi. He's one of my best friends. I strongly suspect he was told by her NOT to tell me. He knows well enough I might call him a dirty cuntrag, but if he was honest, fine, whatever.

So its come down to this. I no longer trust anyone aside from Bro, and possibly my mother. And I thought it was hard to get a girl before. hah. Just wait, it'll double now. But really, what is it that makes people hide this kind of thing, especially when they spend their entire lives saying they would outright say it? I believe there must be some innate fear of some significant person(s) that cause this action, otherwise, people would just say it. I'll admit, I've been in that position, and the gal and I told the other guy the day after. We started dating at like 11pm one night, and by noon the next day, he knew. We gave ourselves enough time to go home, sleep, shower, and meet him for lunch. I'd say that's pretty fucking prompt.

Music: Tool - Parabola
seeing a trend?

So is there a way for people to conquer this seemingly hidden fear? Yes, but only in the event that people cough up and start understanding a simple truth. We are people, not Gods, not great, not horrible. We are the inbetween. We do not have the right to be cocky, nor the right to be shy. We must be as we are. Just be. Accept that, and you'll find out hiding things is pointless. And life becomes a thousand times simpler, and easier. Clue the fuck in people. I'm sure I'm not the only one sick of your bullshit.

Someone call me when people figure it out. Oh wait, I'll know. The world will have stopped and started to implode. We are as we are. We are our own curse. Acceptance is the only Salvation.

Valentine...Falentine...who gives a shit?

Ok, so monday is Valentines, and as an atypical bitch, I'm making a Valentines post. So I went to work yesterday and one of the new girls (who is VERY hot I might add), is working monday night, so I said "hey, I'll take that if you want to go out with your boytoy." She answered "I have no boytoy, but you can have it, I'll go out with the girls" So excellent I happily work Valentines, so instead of being a wretched prick on the internet all night, or instead of getting wasted (mostly because I have no alcohol), I'm working. It'll go by quick. Valentines has never been huge, only once was any good, last year, Krizzle got a dress and went all dork-tastic on me. I enjoyed it, but being dirt poor and living in a house with a couple of guy who are the type to break that type of thing up, I didnt return the favor. BUT. It was nice all the same. Every year before that I was in bed early and not caring. Anyways, left hand turn. I was working with New Girl last night, and we start talking, as coworkers do, and she mentioned that she'd had a job for 2 weeks at the roadhouse. This triggered a memory, last fall a friend of mine was trying to set me up with a hot girl from her class. Yeah guess who hot girl and new girl are. Damn skippy. Same girl. I really resent it not happening now, haha she's cool, and VERY hot. As I've said.

Music: Rise Against - Dancing for Rain

So I get to work with New Girl again tonight, I'll see if I can get her out drinking sometime. I really should be doing my homework, but, I'm a moron like that. Ah well, I'm bored with typing this. Later fuckers.

How To - The Basics of Sleep

How to do a bunny hop on a bike, on, in essense, anything concerning manually lifting your bike off the ground while riding. So I'm making this for a Script writing class, and I figure, since I'm too lazy to handwrite it all, I'll type out my notes. Lets get kickin'.

Ok, so you want to do a bunny hop eh? How about a J-hop? Alright, pay attention. Certain hops and movements on bikes have different names, and I'm too lazy to type them all out. For a more complete idea of moves, try sites like www.trials-online.com, and www.nsmb.com. Hopping is not necessarily and art form, but it's definetly something that needs practice, and I'll start you off by listing the steps to a standstill hop. Lets go.

First step, own a bike. Really, you can't expect to succeed unless you have a bike to ride. Virtually any bike will do, however I recommend a mountain bike or trials bike. The lighter the bike, the better. Moving on.

Step two. When you're riding your bike, you will find after practice that lowering your seat for a stunt like this is advisable. After a while you will learn to adapt if your seat is up, but for now, put it down. a medium to low height is best. Now, you'll find when you drop your seat that your bike has a different feel, a changed geometry almost. The most important thing to do right here is recognize that it doesnt, but YOU have excess space to move and make the bike do what you want. For now, with the seat down, spend some time practicing slowing down to a stop or very slow crawl pace, and staying upright. Once you can stop and stay upright for more than a few seconds, move on to step 3.

The rest of the steps are one fluid motion, broken down into visible steps. I recommend trying the motions while standing without your bike, to get an idea, and then try it ON your bike.

Step three. After you've stopped rolling on the bike, and are balanced, try to keep your weight centered on the bike. Semi curl your toes around the pedals, so that your feet won't slip off. Now, try to drop your weight down towards the frame, and lean back until the front tire comes off the ground a few inches. Note that now your weight will be lower, and over your rear wheel.

Step four. Raise your weight above normal, and lift your legs up towards your body, if your toes were curled enough, the bike should follow the direction of your weight and lift up into the air with you. Use your arms to let the bike float up to you, but don't pull too much, or it'll throw off your balance. At this point you should be slightly off the ground, with the front end at least a few inches higher than the rear.

Step five. Roll your wrists forward and move your weight back towards a center placement, but not all the way. This should bring the rear tire up to an equivalent height as your front tire.

Step six. Keep your weight just slightly behind center placement and let the bike land, a smooth landing will let the rear tire hit the ground either just before, or simutaneously with the front. Let your weight drop slightly and use your motion and your legs to absorb the shock. BEND YOUR KNEES. If you leave your legs stiff you can end up getting hurt or pulling a muscle.

Finale. There are many different versions of the bunnyhop. The move explained in here is one of the easiest to learn, and do well. It is known as the J-hop. Other variations, like a pure bunnyhop, are either less effective or more taxing on yourself. A pure bunnyhop is both tires leaving the ground and then landing on the ground at the same time. Many trials moves, like the Japslap, and the lurch, revolve around basic J-hop principals. For example, a good hop in trials would involve taking the 3rd step, and holding yourself on your rear wheel, balancing. then repeating the motions to get an even higher lift, so you can get your front tire onto objects before lifting the rest of the bike up. Keep in mind, trials bikes are built with a very different geometry so that these motions are easier to do. A typical cross country mountain bike is best used for simple hops, as the instructions describe.