An Explanation of Sorts, Or A Reality Check

Alright, most people who may be reading this blog on a regular basis, or ever at all, must think Im a hopeless lump bent on one girl. Which is true, to an extent, however, I'm not above looking in other directions for possible interests. Lately my mind has started to lose some of the heavier impact of the lady in my mind, and I go back to many of my prior thoughts. I'd mentioned in a prior post that I was thinking about how many people I may meet in the afterlife that I'd forgotten about during my life, and how the reunions may be. It may seem a little farfetched, but I like the thought train. A small insight into my intelligence for people, I have 2 modes of thought, A) so simple its painful, as in 1+1 = 2 type simple, or B) so incredibly complex I usually can't finish the thought. There doesnt seem to be a middle ground. Put math, english, etc in from of me, I'll fail so hard its pathetic, put chemistry, philosophy, psychology, such of that sort? Aced. I'll argue the damn professors into the ground. Philosophic and theological debates and comparisons often fascinate me. Two conversations I remember in particular. One with my father, we had just watched "Bi-Centennial Man" with Robin Williams (an excellent but very sad movie), and we had a discussion that followed (which you'll only understand why if you've seen the movie) about whether or not, if in the event we do ever create a proper A.I., and it does acheive self awareness, and it wanted to be human; if it worked so hard, that it created a way to even die, will God grant that robot a soul? Because certain religious teachings state that nothing man made can have a soul, its not God's will, but in this event, we never created it to be human, it strived for it itself, and what about souls from beings like children who died before birth, or children killed in war, or disabled people, will God grant them another chance? Which just occured to me this opens up a whole new door towards the idea or reincarnation, which some people heavily believe in, and base their entire lives building karma, so to ensure a good next life. But I digress. See how my mind can trail off? When you start to loop these ideas back and forth so they connect, it gets REALLY hard to follow. Even written down. Maybe I'll draw up a chart sometime....another digression. dammit. The other conversation I like to remember, or try to at least, took place after about 5 beer, so I wasnt drunk, just a little tipsy, and I was playing Tony Hawk 2. My roommate at the time Diddy had about 10 beer, and we started to argue about the big bang theory versus the creation-by-superior-being theory. Now what confuses me, is that no matter how I try, I cannot remember the result, or how it came to this part of the conversation. We ended up discussing religious choice and adverse effect it has on the physics of the universe. Thats right, Universal Physics and their Relation to Religious Belief, Theory, and Choices. I know we somehow had a workable solution, but I almost think there was divine intervention (maybe we'd struck on something), because while we both remember the entire night (I even remember all the tony hawk levels), we dont remember a thing about the conversation path and result. Grr. Diddy, Bro and I also had a conversation about time travel and how its theoretically acheived once. I was reading in a Popular Science, so we started to talk about it, and I dont believe its possible, because the theory goes, if you can poke a hole in the universe, its like poking into fabric, it stretches around the compression point, and eventually tears, which is what we call a black hole. Now, theory goes that if a black hole of equal size was created on the OTHER side, or in a relative dimension, it could create a tunnel or "wormhole"in which we could travel through. See, scientists think time stretches with space when the black holes or "stretch" areas are created. I think its bullshit. all the compression and space movement and change are a physical thing, and time is not physical. its supernatural. We can't control the flow of time, only create manmade increments to measure it by, and therefore we're only changing our own increments to follow our traveling theories. Agh, I'm going to go off on this if I dont stop now. I need to read up more on it anyways.

So anyways, I think in due time you'll come to see I'm really not a completely smitten love buffoon, I just enjoy it. I am however, a relatively intelligent guy, I just try not to use it. too much. Its 5 in the morning, I need to sleep. Good Day all, fuck you, and well, yeah, I hope you enjoyed a look into the mind of an aspiring freak. :)