Lackadaisical
For the record, yes, lackadaisical IS a word.
3 topics for this morning. Minor start, so I took the weekend off work (I really shouldnt have but oh well) and thought monday morning would be a typical back to work moment, caught the train, AFTER I got to the station, my boss (Butch) calls and says to go home its not starting for a while. Ok, my bad, I never called him to start. So I'm back at home and writing now.
If people will recall 2 posts down, I mentioned a woman who makes me smile like no tomorrow. I still dont have a nickname for her, but at any rate, after skipping work saturday, I spent all afternoon on msn with her trading music, which anyone who knows me, knows runs my life, so I was pretty amped to get to talk to her AND get music. She was coming into town to see a buddy, and said she was gonna call, I figured just to say hi, maybe poke her head in and give a quick visit. Long story short, she came over and stayed. Getting to spend time with her was like, the biggest bonus of all. I was watching the UFC fights, and was in total awe, it made my night, until she got there and then all I could think of was her. So, we watched a couple movies (she even picked Mortal Kombat, lol, old school, and how FUCKING AWESOME IS THAT) And after my roommate went to bed, she kinda curled up with me and I gave her a light backscratch, when she wanted to go to bed I kind of thought she'd have my room and I'd be on the couch right? But she asked for another backscratch, so I spent some time on that one.
As a note, I discussed with her a while ago about the, I like her an incredible amount and I'd love to date her, but I understand shes not looking for anyone right now - thing. And its ok, because she was up front about it which is all I ask. But I told her if she was ever interested, just SAY so, or make a move. Fair deal right?
Anyways, after the backscratch we said good night, and she kinda asked if she could ask me something, which she's allowed to ask me ANYTHING, and after what seemed like a fairly nervous way, she asked for a kiss. I was more than happy to oblige, and she kisses like soft rain. Vey nice. At any rate, there was multiple kisses. Fuck you about anything else. None of your damn business. But she'd had a slightly awkward night from her other friend, and I REALLY dont wanna push the wrong buttons, but I'm just dying to figure out, was that her way of making a move (which some common sense would state), or was she just in the state where she wanted to have a kiss? Sometimes people just need it. I'm hopefully going to see her again on tuesday, I suppose I'll have to figure out a way to ask. Am I completely fucked in the head? YOU DECIDE! call, 1 800 IRS MRT. fuckers. But yeah, she devastates my life. and I'm more or less loving it. Dorktacular.
THIRD topic. If anyone really reads this, they'll know about Inego. I still talk to her pretty much like, every other day. Apparently last night her fiancee finally made the last act of idiocy on himself and had to leave. What I dont get, is for all the shit he pulls, WHY would she have stayed with him this long? it doesnt make SENSE! at least not to me. When the girl is debating filing a police report on him, isnt that a pretty solid sign that the relationship is probly not in the best interest? kids or not, she's already said she doesnt want them growing up like him. I dont really know where I'm going with this, just I cant understand a guys mentality thinking its ok to act the way he does, and I cant understand her mentality staying with him so long.
I need to go buy books. damn lack of money.
3 topics for this morning. Minor start, so I took the weekend off work (I really shouldnt have but oh well) and thought monday morning would be a typical back to work moment, caught the train, AFTER I got to the station, my boss (Butch) calls and says to go home its not starting for a while. Ok, my bad, I never called him to start. So I'm back at home and writing now.
If people will recall 2 posts down, I mentioned a woman who makes me smile like no tomorrow. I still dont have a nickname for her, but at any rate, after skipping work saturday, I spent all afternoon on msn with her trading music, which anyone who knows me, knows runs my life, so I was pretty amped to get to talk to her AND get music. She was coming into town to see a buddy, and said she was gonna call, I figured just to say hi, maybe poke her head in and give a quick visit. Long story short, she came over and stayed. Getting to spend time with her was like, the biggest bonus of all. I was watching the UFC fights, and was in total awe, it made my night, until she got there and then all I could think of was her. So, we watched a couple movies (she even picked Mortal Kombat, lol, old school, and how FUCKING AWESOME IS THAT) And after my roommate went to bed, she kinda curled up with me and I gave her a light backscratch, when she wanted to go to bed I kind of thought she'd have my room and I'd be on the couch right? But she asked for another backscratch, so I spent some time on that one.
As a note, I discussed with her a while ago about the, I like her an incredible amount and I'd love to date her, but I understand shes not looking for anyone right now - thing. And its ok, because she was up front about it which is all I ask. But I told her if she was ever interested, just SAY so, or make a move. Fair deal right?
Anyways, after the backscratch we said good night, and she kinda asked if she could ask me something, which she's allowed to ask me ANYTHING, and after what seemed like a fairly nervous way, she asked for a kiss. I was more than happy to oblige, and she kisses like soft rain. Vey nice. At any rate, there was multiple kisses. Fuck you about anything else. None of your damn business. But she'd had a slightly awkward night from her other friend, and I REALLY dont wanna push the wrong buttons, but I'm just dying to figure out, was that her way of making a move (which some common sense would state), or was she just in the state where she wanted to have a kiss? Sometimes people just need it. I'm hopefully going to see her again on tuesday, I suppose I'll have to figure out a way to ask. Am I completely fucked in the head? YOU DECIDE! call, 1 800 IRS MRT. fuckers. But yeah, she devastates my life. and I'm more or less loving it. Dorktacular.
THIRD topic. If anyone really reads this, they'll know about Inego. I still talk to her pretty much like, every other day. Apparently last night her fiancee finally made the last act of idiocy on himself and had to leave. What I dont get, is for all the shit he pulls, WHY would she have stayed with him this long? it doesnt make SENSE! at least not to me. When the girl is debating filing a police report on him, isnt that a pretty solid sign that the relationship is probly not in the best interest? kids or not, she's already said she doesnt want them growing up like him. I dont really know where I'm going with this, just I cant understand a guys mentality thinking its ok to act the way he does, and I cant understand her mentality staying with him so long.
I need to go buy books. damn lack of money.
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