Times Come and Gone

So, I'm 21, birthday's come, gone, same as the usual, Christmas has come and left us, as per the norm. I never did get to go and see my friend in Calgary, havent talked to her much, makes me sad. But I suppose thats life and anytime she wants to talk to me she'll get ahold of me, she knows where I am. I guess I'll give up. /sigh/ I used the money to buy and Xbox, which, looking now, was a great purchase, having both the PS2 and the Xbox is quite enjoyable. I'll have the PS3 soon as there's a release date, I'll preorder it even if it costs me a testicle. So, I started at a new Macs/Esso location, since my boss decided to give up ownership, and the Mac's Corporation are whores, and told him he HAD to leave before christmas, so as of the 21st, I was working at a new location, seem to be getting along with everyone. Had to work both christmas eve and day graveyard shifts though, and the ONE person, who seems to hate me (reason still unknown, apparently listening to Thornley on a laptop counts as emo, immature and sick, go figure), had to come in on boxing day morning. But thats life. She'll either grow up, or be emo her entire life, while blatantly denying it and never realizing it. And so life goes on. I also worked all new years weekend, although at least I got to catch the first few goals of the Calgary Edmonton New Years game, in which my Calgarian buddskies got their 6-5 win. That Huselius dude has paid off huge. So, back to christmas. I got the Flames jersey I've been begging for for 2 months, its even more beautiful than you'd think, ah how I adore hockey. I also got a campstove, which I was definetly not expecting, and am quite pleased about, I do enjoy my camping and I'll always be up for some morning eggs while I'm tenting. Even got a couple bottles of propane. :) Got a Calvin and Hobbes book, and a Far Side, the 2 greatest comics ever printed, and a pair of pants and a couple sweaters which looking at now, I really like, they're thin, not heavy, but still very warm, almost a silky feeling to them. But the main part of my christmas, was split in 2, and only half came true. I got to see my nephews and neice for a while, which I always love, but I didnt get to go to see her and her kid, I think you know of whom I speak. I was rather looking forward to it, if not just to get the hell out of lethbridge for a while, alas to no avail it would seem. I'm finding myself thinking about her way to often, perhaps I'm desperate for someone who'll volutarily be there for me and hold me as much as I would them. But then again, if she doesnt speak to me, maybe she wouldnt. Who knows. But I am growing farther and farther lonlier, and its slowly killing me inside. I know if has to be a good thing, I can't just settle for some half asses situation, if I could I would've stayed with the Crazy Girl from november. Is there some one who wants to easy my dull ache? Perhaps. Until I find her, I suppose my doom is written to be as is...